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I wonder how long this will last?

I hope and plan to keep this diary for as long as possible. So many times it has just petered out, but I think the electronic version will work.

I spent my day feeling lonely. No potential boyfriends or girlfriends on the horizon. I want�a girlfriend if Iapos;m totally honest, Iapos;ve been in the closet for too long and have become sick of guys.

I canapos;t believe Bertie got Ali in a day. ONE DAY Itapos;s not fair, he isnapos;t even that good-looking. If Iapos;m honest, he bores me quite a lot. I like Kat much better, but they come as a pair I guess. Also I knew him first and he lives closer.

Iapos;m taking Tom, Kat, Bertie and Ash to the comedy club tomorrow night. I hope they like it. I know it wonapos;t fail though, because we canapos;t help but get along as a group. Iapos;m so glad Tom didnapos;t make it into Twyford, maybe heapos;ll stay at Richmond for a bit longer. Though I know he hates it, so Iapos;m pretty sure heapos;s gonna drop out soon.

I think this is the first diary in which I can be totally honest. Thereapos;s no danger of someone stumbling across it, etc etc. I think Iapos;ve always lied in past diaries before. I think it was half lying to myself as well, as if I was trying to be a different person. Iapos;m going to stop myself from doing that here. I will try to keep a total record of my genuine thoughts and feelings, no matter how embarrassing or shameful, so that I can look back and read this and be able to remember what really happened, how I really felt and what I was really like.
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